I must have been really busy because I don’t really notice the time, the days and months that are passing by so fast. It feels like yesterday we welcome 2017, and yet soon we are saying goodbye and welcome another year. I’ve been good this year and yes super busy with work and school. Every day I come home from work really tired and all I want to do is rest and go to bed. But I have a small kid to take care of, so throwing myself to bed when I come home isn’t possible at all. Unless when she’s with the father. Then it’s a different story.
I have been so stress with school papers and everyday work. Sometimes I feel frustrated. Telling myself to stop. But I just can’t. If I want something better to happen in the future, I need to work it now. Hard work is key. I am hardworking. Doing nothing and being lazy makes me feel bored. Sometimes I want it that way. To do nothing at all. Wasting my time watching tv or playing with my phone. But then I have always pleased having an income on my own. To work and earn money on my own. Being independent is the best. I was once in my life being dependent to someone. And though it feels like you are a princess, it doesn’t feel a self-worth. So whatever I am doing now, I am happy with it. It is difficult, frustrating and stressful, but at the end of the day, I can say that “I am proud of me”. So despite all the hardships I know I can do it!
Self care! As I mentioned earlier I have been stressed lately. I even think of signing up a gym membership again. But I know that I don’t have the time to go to the gym. However, I’m trying to relax as much as possible. I learnt to listen to my body. If I can’t do anymore, then that means I need some rest. I am beyond grateful to God Almighty for his unending grace. No matter how much a loser I felt, God always reminds me to be humble and be contented of what I have. I know He is watching me all the time. And whenever I feel like giving up. I call his name and ask his guidance and power to bless me. And then everything’s okay and I feel better.